She just likes to fight

Periférico

Existe una extraña sensación que consiste en una nostalgia combinada con el famoso “¿Qué hubiera sido?” y un “no me arrepiento de lo decidido”. Nunca había experimentado algo así, aunque no signifique que no pueda soportar la sensación y el album de imágenes provocadas a raíz de lo generado en el sentir.

Uno aprende que los éxitos o fracasos se generan en ciertos ciclos, o en otro entender, en temporadas o episodios. He aprendido que debemos valorar esos pequeños o grandes paquetes de tiempo, que incluyen experiencias con determinadas personas y una guarnición de sentimientos que van desde lo agradable a lo desagradable.

Nunca me arrepentiré de haber rechazado una oferta a uno de esos paquetes temporales por causa a la fé que tenía en un paquete que estaba consumiendo en forma paralela. Ambas etapas fueron finalizadas, no del modo que hubiera querido pero sí como tenía que ser. Cada paquete lo protagonizó una persona muy importante, que al final el menos esperado fue quien más se ha quedado impregnado en mi memoria.

City Center

El tiempo estimado de llegar desde Fco. de Montejo hasta Jardines del Norte a una velocidad de 110 km/h sobre el Anillo Periférico de la Ciudad de Mérida, Yucatán es de 10-15 minutos. Esto también depende de la hora en la que salgas para agarrar la ruta… o la persona que se convierta en tu copiloto. Mi copiloto por muchos meses fue Mr. J. Él me mantenía despierta y alegre hacia cualquier camino, ya sea ir por uno de esos días al Starbucks lindo de Paseo de Montejo en donde me ofrecia pedir el café más mentolado y más grande, junto a un postre, o en otras ocasiones ir por esas cenas sumamente grasosas, que fácilmente podría taparnos las arterias en cuestión de segundos y dejarnos botados en el restaurante.

La memoría registra los momentos cruciales que desembocan grandes o importantes sucesos, uno de ellos es el camino de regreso a nuestra colonia en común. Mr. J me despidió esa noche con uno de esos silenciosos abrazos que hablan demasiado, que con una calidad de movimiento sobre el hombro te pueden confesar un secreto, que la posición de las manos puede delatar lo que en ese momento piensa uno.

Ese minuto de silencio acompañado de un abrazo hizo que los poros de mi piel leyeran el pensamiento del que en ese momento era mi mejor amigo. Ese fue el momento crucial donde yo ya iba más allá de pensar que eras mi amigo, te empezaba a querer como un compañero.

Sé que nunca leeras esto, porque no frecuentas estos medios. Sé que tomaste la decisión de no saber más de mí y olvidarte. Pero estoy segura que todos esos buenos momentos que surgieron despues de ese gran abrazo nunca los olvidarás. Me ofreciste cambiar el lugar de mi pareja para que tu estés ahí y realmente lo mereciste en el momento, pero fui una cobarde. No me arrepiento de lo que hice, sólo acepto mi condición.

Es increible poder enamorarte de alguien sin haberte tocado, sin necesidad de sexo y de engañar físicamente. Yo ya no estaba enamorada de mi pareja, estaba enamorada de mi copiloto.

Y sí, te engañé…porque te dije que no sentía algo por él, pero la verdad es que lo sentía todo.

Te quedaste impregnado, Mr. J. Cosas que anhelabamos hacer mi moral me impedió y no me arrepiento. Se me ha cobrado con la moneda que yo no pague, pero si pensé.

Y a Mr. G, sólo puedo desearle éxito y darle gracias por las enseñanzas. Me hicisto mucho mal, pero al final yo hice mal al igual por nunca tomar la determinación de dejar ir a lo que ya había muerto.

He pecado de pensamiento, pero no de acción. Si el karma me ha cobrado por el pensamiento, entonces acepto merecerme lo que ha pasado.

Gracias a los dos por darme fuerza para la siguiente etapa.

Adios Mr. G

Te veo pronto, Mr J

Periférico y ese trayecto de 10-15 minutos me hizo darme cuenta que no te quería como mi amigo, te quería como mi compañero.


2013

Sé que este es uno de los poco espacios en donde puedo escribirle a gente desconocida; es la única forma de poder plasmar mi sentir en un espacio en donde, probablemente, nadie me conozca.

2012 fue un año muy bueno: danza, amor, viajes, oportunidades y muchas otras cosas que beneficiaron mi vida. Desafortunadamente, eso que el 2012 me dió y me hizo muy feliz, decidió regresar e hacerme infeliz de nuevo.

No importa lo que pasó, si no lo que uno aprende de las circunstancias.

Este año no tengo más propositos que el de terminar mi tesis. Lo demás, son cosas que debemos de hacer SIEMPRE y no esperar a un nuevo año para proponerlo.

¿Por qué escribo aquí? Por que es terapeutico plasmar lo que uno tiene en la mente, aunque me importe un pedazo de pito engangrenado lo que piensen al leerlo.

Si algo marcó mucho mi vida este año, fue él, quien creí que era MI PERSONA. Inicio 2013 con la gran decepción de que no, no es mi persona. Mi persona es alguien que me cuidara cuando lo necesito, que me apoye en los tiempos difíciles, que esté conmigo en las situaciones complicadas de la vida, en la que pueda confiar con la seguridad que no use nuestra historia con otras personas y me pueda perjudicar…en fin, ser la persona de alguien significa LEALTAD, COMPROMISO, AMOR, CONFIANZA, APOYO MUTUO y muchas cosas más.

No me arrepiento. Estoy feliz de saber que di lo que debí dar. Finalmente uno no puede obligar a otro a ser como uno quisiera…bueno, no se debe aunque exista quien SÍ obligue.

Dejarte ha sido una decisión muy dificil, pero he superado verdaderos retos y esto no me derrumbará.

Mon.


mydarkenedeyes:

First look: Gabriel Dawe’s stunning new thread art in Italy.
Gabriel Dawe created Plexis no. 19, a stunning thread installation thats beautifully spread across two balconies in the atrium of a historic villa. The early 19th century neoclassic house, called Villa Olmo, was acquired in 1924 by the municipality of Como and is now open to the public only during cultural events and art exhibitions like this.
Plexus no. 19 consists of two thread structures streamed across an upper and lower balcony that is meant to be experienced from different angles or at different times of the day. As Dawe tells us, “When the sun comes in during the morning, it is fantastic. Having those window-shaped light beams add a dimension to the installation. I always like when I get direct sunshine on them because it emphasizes the layering of the thread in very interesting ways.”
With two assistants, he constructed this installation in about a week. His greatest challenge was working to the confines of the space. “Because of the historic nature of the building, I wasn’t able to touch ceiling, walls or floors to screw in my structures,” he says. “So I resorted to fixing them to the railings, which in great measure restricted what I was able to do. In the end, it worked out pretty well; it really exceeded my expectations how well the installation inhabits the space.”
Via My Modern Met.
mydarkenedeyes:

First look: Gabriel Dawe’s stunning new thread art in Italy.
Gabriel Dawe created Plexis no. 19, a stunning thread installation thats beautifully spread across two balconies in the atrium of a historic villa. The early 19th century neoclassic house, called Villa Olmo, was acquired in 1924 by the municipality of Como and is now open to the public only during cultural events and art exhibitions like this.
Plexus no. 19 consists of two thread structures streamed across an upper and lower balcony that is meant to be experienced from different angles or at different times of the day. As Dawe tells us, “When the sun comes in during the morning, it is fantastic. Having those window-shaped light beams add a dimension to the installation. I always like when I get direct sunshine on them because it emphasizes the layering of the thread in very interesting ways.”
With two assistants, he constructed this installation in about a week. His greatest challenge was working to the confines of the space. “Because of the historic nature of the building, I wasn’t able to touch ceiling, walls or floors to screw in my structures,” he says. “So I resorted to fixing them to the railings, which in great measure restricted what I was able to do. In the end, it worked out pretty well; it really exceeded my expectations how well the installation inhabits the space.”
Via My Modern Met.
mydarkenedeyes:

First look: Gabriel Dawe’s stunning new thread art in Italy.
Gabriel Dawe created Plexis no. 19, a stunning thread installation thats beautifully spread across two balconies in the atrium of a historic villa. The early 19th century neoclassic house, called Villa Olmo, was acquired in 1924 by the municipality of Como and is now open to the public only during cultural events and art exhibitions like this.
Plexus no. 19 consists of two thread structures streamed across an upper and lower balcony that is meant to be experienced from different angles or at different times of the day. As Dawe tells us, “When the sun comes in during the morning, it is fantastic. Having those window-shaped light beams add a dimension to the installation. I always like when I get direct sunshine on them because it emphasizes the layering of the thread in very interesting ways.”
With two assistants, he constructed this installation in about a week. His greatest challenge was working to the confines of the space. “Because of the historic nature of the building, I wasn’t able to touch ceiling, walls or floors to screw in my structures,” he says. “So I resorted to fixing them to the railings, which in great measure restricted what I was able to do. In the end, it worked out pretty well; it really exceeded my expectations how well the installation inhabits the space.”
Via My Modern Met.
mydarkenedeyes:

First look: Gabriel Dawe’s stunning new thread art in Italy.
Gabriel Dawe created Plexis no. 19, a stunning thread installation thats beautifully spread across two balconies in the atrium of a historic villa. The early 19th century neoclassic house, called Villa Olmo, was acquired in 1924 by the municipality of Como and is now open to the public only during cultural events and art exhibitions like this.
Plexus no. 19 consists of two thread structures streamed across an upper and lower balcony that is meant to be experienced from different angles or at different times of the day. As Dawe tells us, “When the sun comes in during the morning, it is fantastic. Having those window-shaped light beams add a dimension to the installation. I always like when I get direct sunshine on them because it emphasizes the layering of the thread in very interesting ways.”
With two assistants, he constructed this installation in about a week. His greatest challenge was working to the confines of the space. “Because of the historic nature of the building, I wasn’t able to touch ceiling, walls or floors to screw in my structures,” he says. “So I resorted to fixing them to the railings, which in great measure restricted what I was able to do. In the end, it worked out pretty well; it really exceeded my expectations how well the installation inhabits the space.”
Via My Modern Met.
mydarkenedeyes:

First look: Gabriel Dawe’s stunning new thread art in Italy.
Gabriel Dawe created Plexis no. 19, a stunning thread installation thats beautifully spread across two balconies in the atrium of a historic villa. The early 19th century neoclassic house, called Villa Olmo, was acquired in 1924 by the municipality of Como and is now open to the public only during cultural events and art exhibitions like this.
Plexus no. 19 consists of two thread structures streamed across an upper and lower balcony that is meant to be experienced from different angles or at different times of the day. As Dawe tells us, “When the sun comes in during the morning, it is fantastic. Having those window-shaped light beams add a dimension to the installation. I always like when I get direct sunshine on them because it emphasizes the layering of the thread in very interesting ways.”
With two assistants, he constructed this installation in about a week. His greatest challenge was working to the confines of the space. “Because of the historic nature of the building, I wasn’t able to touch ceiling, walls or floors to screw in my structures,” he says. “So I resorted to fixing them to the railings, which in great measure restricted what I was able to do. In the end, it worked out pretty well; it really exceeded my expectations how well the installation inhabits the space.”
Via My Modern Met.
mydarkenedeyes:

First look: Gabriel Dawe’s stunning new thread art in Italy.
Gabriel Dawe created Plexis no. 19, a stunning thread installation thats beautifully spread across two balconies in the atrium of a historic villa. The early 19th century neoclassic house, called Villa Olmo, was acquired in 1924 by the municipality of Como and is now open to the public only during cultural events and art exhibitions like this.
Plexus no. 19 consists of two thread structures streamed across an upper and lower balcony that is meant to be experienced from different angles or at different times of the day. As Dawe tells us, “When the sun comes in during the morning, it is fantastic. Having those window-shaped light beams add a dimension to the installation. I always like when I get direct sunshine on them because it emphasizes the layering of the thread in very interesting ways.”
With two assistants, he constructed this installation in about a week. His greatest challenge was working to the confines of the space. “Because of the historic nature of the building, I wasn’t able to touch ceiling, walls or floors to screw in my structures,” he says. “So I resorted to fixing them to the railings, which in great measure restricted what I was able to do. In the end, it worked out pretty well; it really exceeded my expectations how well the installation inhabits the space.”
Via My Modern Met.
mydarkenedeyes:

First look: Gabriel Dawe’s stunning new thread art in Italy.
Gabriel Dawe created Plexis no. 19, a stunning thread installation thats beautifully spread across two balconies in the atrium of a historic villa. The early 19th century neoclassic house, called Villa Olmo, was acquired in 1924 by the municipality of Como and is now open to the public only during cultural events and art exhibitions like this.
Plexus no. 19 consists of two thread structures streamed across an upper and lower balcony that is meant to be experienced from different angles or at different times of the day. As Dawe tells us, “When the sun comes in during the morning, it is fantastic. Having those window-shaped light beams add a dimension to the installation. I always like when I get direct sunshine on them because it emphasizes the layering of the thread in very interesting ways.”
With two assistants, he constructed this installation in about a week. His greatest challenge was working to the confines of the space. “Because of the historic nature of the building, I wasn’t able to touch ceiling, walls or floors to screw in my structures,” he says. “So I resorted to fixing them to the railings, which in great measure restricted what I was able to do. In the end, it worked out pretty well; it really exceeded my expectations how well the installation inhabits the space.”
Via My Modern Met.

mydarkenedeyes:

First look: Gabriel Dawe’s stunning new thread art in Italy.

Gabriel Dawe created Plexis no. 19, a stunning thread installation thats beautifully spread across two balconies in the atrium of a historic villa. The early 19th century neoclassic house, called Villa Olmo, was acquired in 1924 by the municipality of Como and is now open to the public only during cultural events and art exhibitions like this.

Plexus no. 19 consists of two thread structures streamed across an upper and lower balcony that is meant to be experienced from different angles or at different times of the day. As Dawe tells us, “When the sun comes in during the morning, it is fantastic. Having those window-shaped light beams add a dimension to the installation. I always like when I get direct sunshine on them because it emphasizes the layering of the thread in very interesting ways.”

With two assistants, he constructed this installation in about a week. His greatest challenge was working to the confines of the space. “Because of the historic nature of the building, I wasn’t able to touch ceiling, walls or floors to screw in my structures,” he says. “So I resorted to fixing them to the railings, which in great measure restricted what I was able to do. In the end, it worked out pretty well; it really exceeded my expectations how well the installation inhabits the space.”

Via My Modern Met.